December

December.
The blackness settles in.
The nightmares which haunt my soul,
They circle,
Threatening to swallow me whole.
Too much.
Too hard.
Too sad.
Let me go.
This place holds nothing more for me.
What I need can never be.
The blackness looms
My heart is laid open
Gutted.
Shuttered.
I sputter.
The effort to keep going,
Impossible.
This life - implausible.
Why me?
Where is the lesson?
What meaning lies in this?
December, so cruel.
I'm a carcass.
You've had your way with me.
Now leave me be.
This yearly curse,
Are you my destiny?
Eternal massacre.
What's next?
Why not take me?
But no, there'd be no fun in that.
You leave me to suffer.
Pummeling me flat.
The massacre of my heart
Never ending.
I hate you, December.
Just leave me be.